Without unnecessary intro - (that was an intro already, dammit xD )
- i am in a despair.

This is an artists' page. So all who will spend a second with this journal should know the feeling.
The feeling when you are making your newest, super-duper, worked on to the last detail picture.
I know i am not the best master of the pencil and ink in the world (not yet at least, hehehehehe ) but i am certain, that i put love and all my skills into every single of my pictures. I am working on them, thinking about composition, colors, contrasts, well, everything, to make it optimal.
My experience is also growing by time. When i look at my pictures from barely half a year ago i can see big difference in technique.

But goddamnit, no matter how much i like my own works and the more i put into them, they keep getting less and less attention. What is happening? I have been asking myself some questions lately. They've been torturing me a lot.
Have my art became boring?
Do i have nothing else to offer to people?
Do i suck at only thing i consider my main value?

I don't want to approach my yet-to-be works with this attitude. So far i've been so happy everytime i started sketching something new, and considered it being worthy to make it a full picture. And i was putting so much passion into the process of making too! I looked at those creations like at parts of myself! I don't want to lose that fire...

But i still feel like its about to burn out.

- Whiskey
- Orange Juice
- Glögg
- Tea
- 'Binoculars'
- Beer
- Coffee
- AppleWine

Oh, shi! o_o I have to pick a journal skin for free o_o I guess i will go with the awesome deviant green o_o